Hello everyone!! I can’t believe that my last blog post on here was October 3, 2017.  My amazing son Cabot was born on September 29th at 7:05 PM. He weighed 7 lb 9 oz and was 19 inches long. Now my little Cab is over 18 lbs, and over 27 inches long! The past seven months have been challenging and hectic at times, and I really just wanted to let myself return to my blog without any pressure; when I was ready.

Cabot’s first two months were full of stress over his weight, marathon breastfeeding sessions, 5 am bed times, and many tears (sometimes from Cabot, sometimes me, sometimes both haha). Around 2 months I started pumping for bottles so we could make sure he was getting enough….then he was diagnosed with a lip & tongue tie and had laser surgery to fix that…..then there was still a mix of breastfeeding and pumping bottles….then I went back to work in January and have been exclusively pumping ever since. In the midst of all of that, my little guy has absolutely stolen our hearts, there have been snuggles, kisses, smiles, and yes since six months old, he sleeps through the night, 7 PM to somewhere between 6:30-8 AM. Breastfeeding was hard, pumping is hard, but I really wanted Cabot to have breastmilk until at least 9 months and I am physically able to do it, so we carry on. I am freezing at least a bottle every day to so he can have a breastmilk bottle a day until he turns 1 if we choose to stop pumping at 9 months.

Motherhood has really taught me humility. I have always been an overachiever in school, my job, and any extracurricular activities I participate in. I wanted to give birth naturally and breastfeed for a year. I got the epidural at hour 12 and breastfeeding alone wasn’t getting enough food to Cabot. The world kept spinning.

As Cabot is getting older, I am recovering little bits of my life 🙂 I started running again, my husband and I have had some fun date nights, and we even have a night at the Mountain View Grand in Whitefield NH planned soon! Cabot is a good eater and a good sleeper, his smile just makes your day, and thankfully he smiles often. He crawls like a man on a mission and has been pulling himself to stand up on any furniture or toy he deems sturdy enough. Here’s some of my fave pics with my little man.

I am really looking forward to spending the summer home with Cabot. We already have parent-baby swim classes scheduled, first friends playgroup and story time at the local children’s museum, and hopefully many trips to the beach! I hope everyone out there in the blogosphere has had a great 2018 so far!

P.S. If anyone reading this is struggling with breastfeeding and pumping, just know that you are NOT alone, and whatever choices YOU make for your own health and the health of your baby are right and ok!! I have been subjected to judgement from all sides- from people telling me to just give up already and switch to formula to people telling me I wasn’t trying hard enough to breastfeed…I could write a whole post about this alone, ha.